soft & delicate ☆*･
leather☆
what am if i am not feminine? beautiful skin and beautiful eyes long blonde hair and long red nails
i dont know if i ever liked ribbons and pink i like it but it feels like wearing a target why am i feminine but others aren't what makes this
is it long eyelashes and soft hair? I guess it never really was fair
soft and delicate, they say that only pale is beauty it's the only things seen on walls
whitness and so called purity beauty in emptiness the same repating patterns it's all the same never changing never ending
how is anyone supposed to love themselves? i guess it never really was fair
the relationship with this feeling i feel the desire to be this way what is expected of me is it desire or taught? is it like they say, what god wanted?
i want to be loved but what kind do i want how am i supposed to love if i dont even know how will i ever know
how can i ever learn what i want? I guess it never really was fair
lace☆
do i need to be this way? why am i less desirable depending on what i am?
i dont know if i ever hated pink ribbons and blonde hair it was just the thing i was told to hate
what they told me was embarassing
little devils written in crayon
childish yet dark i thought they were nice
but they are not the children i thought even if they act like it
unserious an rude they can be scary
like the fabric i feel transparent i dont feel delicate
but fragile i will break under any force
they say it's a privilege to feel this weakness the need to be protected
but who is protecting me?
i thought i wouldn't have to do this alone i was told that i will find a crutch who will it be?
but if i rely on someone will they have to rely on me? i dont know if i deserve that or if i am deserved
do i deserve any of this?
nobody ever told me